Day 10 Williams/ Bradfort Family Support Network Therapy

So, Emelie and Bella had done a little grocery shopping after yesterdays meeting and as they put in today's CD of Patsy Cline, they both giggle knowing it's Grandpa Alan's CD and Mom will just love it! They lay on the big table a tray in front of all 6 place sittings, and fill that tray with enough ingredients for each person to make his or hers own dozen cookies. It's a no-bake recipe, so no kitchen necessary, which is wonderful! They don't have to leave there sacred place. So they lay down the oatmeal and cocoa powder and butter, as singing softly to" Crazy". This song always made Emelie think of her own mental instabilities, and kind of triggered an instant little migraine in Bella. Bella, knowing that her Mother and sister gave into feeling sorry for themselves way too easily. About not being mentally" normal" what ever that meant anyway. When Bella herself did see some abnormalities, but not as many as she'd seen in other people in her life. Emelie and Janie were both way too hard on themselves, in Bella's opinion anyway. Yet, it's easy to say and feel these ways as Bella does, when you yourself are not suffering from them. As both Janie, Emelie, and Aiden, indeed were. They were all clinically diagnosed and saw there Doctors on a regular basis to make sure the medications they took worked well enough to keep them a functioning member of there community. Most of the time it felt however that the pills didn't help as much, as a close loved one who tried to put them self in your shoes, or identify with you at some small level. Just to be a bit more understanding and compassionate about it all. They all knew about one an others disabilities, yet they were not all compassionate at times. Most of the time they were just totally indifferent and uncaring. This not only hurt a great deal, yet made you feel even more alone and scared. So, this room tends to take away a bit of that loneliness and fear, and let in the laughter and togetherness. The hope here is to move this into everyday living, not just keep it all in this wonderful place. To be able to share it out more openly. Without the fear of rejection, or being manipulated into thinking one understands and cares. When really they are just placating you, so they may tolerate having you around. Emelie was starting to get the feeling that this wasn't just a hope and prayer of hers, yet also of Bella's too, and Janies, and Aiden's and Thoma's. The only one very hard to read was Grandpa Alan. He seemed too complacent, as long as they all got along and were happy, he didn't matter anymore. Which of course was just nonsense! Well, everyone was very excited to put together there very own batch of no-bake cookies, they each were mixing the ingredients together, in there very own mixing bowls. When Emelie switched CD'c to listen to Metallica's "Everywhere I Roam" clearly Aiden's music. Then they added spoons full of cookie dough to waxed cookie pans. To sit covered until tomorrow, when they would all enjoy the cookies for days, there were to be 6 batches of a dozen cookies made, now that's alot of snackin'! Well, that's it for today. End of Day 10